Hi, I’m Natasha

There was a time I didn’t want to be alive.

I had spent my career helping people heal. I had studied the body, the emotions, the mind, and I was still carrying one thought I couldn’t shake: I don’t want to be here.

I didn’t grow up in church. Nobody told me God wanted to talk to me. What I knew was that I felt everything, and I felt it deeply.

Loss found me early. My dance teacher died when I was in junior high. A friend died in a car accident in high school. Another friend in college was murdered, and for 23 years, I didn’t speak to my dad. By adulthood, my health was failing, my business was failing, and my relationships were falling apart. I carried it all quietly and wondered what was wrong with me.

So I searched. I became a chiropractor because I wanted to help people heal, but I watched patients follow the perfect treatment plan, come to every visit, get the perfect adjustment, and still struggle. Something deeper was going on. So I studied how emotions affect the body and learned energy healing to clear emotional blockages. However, the emotions kept coming back, because the beliefs underneath them hadn’t changed. So I studied consciousness work and learned to coach people through shifting their beliefs.

I was doing all of it on myself, too. I’d been adjusted since I was three years old. I took every supplement and ate every healthy diet. I read the books. I meditated. I changed my language. I tried talk therapy and coaching. I even picked up the phone and called my dad after 23 years of silence, because I was determined to clean up every corner of my life.

Each layer helped a little. None of it was enough. I still felt miserable. The things I wanted most still weren’t happening. Some days I still wanted to die. I had climbed every rung of the ladder, physical, emotional, mental, and something was still missing.

Then I heard a podcast about a prayer of freedom.

Every cell in my body started vibrating. I knew, all the way down: this is it. This is what I’ve been missing. It was Jesus. I had spent years trying to figure out my life fifteen steps removed from the One who created it. So I stopped trying to figure it out, and I went straight to the Creator of all of it. I asked Him who I am.

He answered.

After a lifetime of not wanting to be here, I heard the truth about who I am from the One who created me.

I said yes. Within weeks, everything changed. I met my partner. I got engaged, I moved, and I stepped into the life I had wanted for so long.

I had been coaching women for years, through health issues, new careers, and seasons of starting over. Now I could finally see what was missing for them, the same thing that had been missing for me. They didn’t know who they are to God, and until you know that, it doesn’t matter how many emotions or beliefs you clear. You’re a boat without a rudder.

I watched it happen with a woman who came to me ready to leave a career she’d known for 15 years. She found the courage to step out, but God did more than that. Along the way, He healed something in her family. They started talking again, and after 25 years apart, they came back together for a reunion.

That’s what happens when a woman hears Him and responds.